Happy Pride Y’all

I wanted to share this IG post with y’all as well.
I realize I have not shared much (if any) about this aspect of my identity & June is the month to do it 😊🏳️‍🌈

I received this message this morning. Boy did it bring out the boo-hoo’s in me!! This is the first time in my life a straight Christian woman acknowledged my sexual identity is something I am proud of.

My #alphabetmafia journey…like everything else in my life was not a straight path. 

I did not acknowledge my bisexuality until my late 20s (even to myself). I had always found women attractive but being a person who lives in the south and struggles with mental health I justified it was just “safer” to be straight. 

I can now label that process as internalized homophobia from a childhood of religious indoctrination. 

Throughout my life I’ve had many close friends who were out. Often times I had been the butt of a joke that there was no way I was fully straight. 

In May of 2019 – I broke off an engagement. It was a horribly toxic relationship and many factors contributed to its deminse. Knowing I would be forced to live the rest of my life without acknowledging my true identity was one of them. 

From fall of 2019 – spring 2020 I came out to the few family members I am in contact with. I think I had the conversation with my dad maybe a month before the world shut down for covid. 

I don’t know how much of my larger circle knows how I identify. I’m in a relationship with a man – so it’s easy to assume.

Even if outwardly my life does not appear that different, the journey has had great impact on my soul. Two years of living my truth has been good. It meant the world to me to get this beautiful message from a friend this morning 💗

Happy #pride y’all!

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Published by Jamie Schmidt, LPC

Just a human being on a journey of self discovery. Psychology + Spirit + Healing

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