Buffalo Magic

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Look at this beauty I made! I have wanted to attend one of @wildspirityogatx drum making ceremonies for years.

I’m so grateful I finally got to have this experience!!

I saw her in the pile of hides and immediately knew it was the piece for me to work with. As usual in my life she came with a lesson.

The first process is punching the holes along the outside for stringing. It took 3 punchers, 2 pieces of wood & assistance from two others to get the first hole in!!!

I was literally mortified that pretty much everyone had finished with their 16 holes and I had 1.

I was thinking to myself I’m going to still be here hammering while everyone else has a manifested a full drum already.

Then the magic happened – after the first two sets the rest punched seamlessly. Jen says there must have just been a strong fascia layer at that one point.

There’s so many lessons and metaphors in there for me:

  • When you can’t go it all alone, ask for help. Whoo is this uncomfortable for me. It is hard for me to ask for assistance from anyone. I’m a steadfast do it yourself kinda gal. But life wasn’t designed to be gone at alone. We exist as members of a community. Humans have always depended on tribal connections for survival. It is human to need modeling, teaching, or even just an extra set of hands.
  • It’s ok if you’re not at the same pace as everyone else. Another super hard one for this former GT kid to accept. For a good part of my life – I set the pace for my peers. I was the standard other’s hoped to beat. I truly cannot think of a single classroom situation in my life where I was halfway behind everyone else in the room. It definitely led to some emotions…
  • Frustration and shame don’t lead to solutions, validate your emotional experience and move to problem solving. I was experiencing justified anger – my goal was being blocked – I needed 16 holes in my hide and couldn’t get 1. I was feeling unjustified shame – my lack of skill was not going to get me ostracized from this group. I know for a fact that as long as I am willing to show up authentically and be actively engaged in my own journey – I am enough. So you validate the valid (anger) and you slough away the invalid (shame), which allows the emotions to pass through. Then you can move on to actually finding solutions.
  • Stop making excuses and do the things your soul truly desires. Someone spending money on things that truly care for my soul has always been hard to justify. I never struggled to find $7 for a pack of smokes, but a $15 yoga class is self indulgent (let alone a $200 drum that honestly how often am I going to use it). But life is always changing. That amazing teacher may not still be in studio next year. Participate in the things you truly desire. Allow yourself to indulge in the good things. It’s really helped my perspective – in the last year the studio has gone from pricing their events with “cost” to “investment.” I am worth investing in – especially my growth & peace.

I’ll be at the next drum circle. With my beauty!

Love & Light!

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#trauma #ptsd #recovery #cptsd # hypervigilance #mentalhealth #wellness #treatment #insomnia #anxiety #depression #healing #healingispossible #shadowwork #facethedarkness #psychology #counseling #dbt #dialectics #selfcare #bpd #nonjudgmental #compassion #kindness #ego #hope #lifeworthliving #thrive #evolve #phoenix #resurrection #rebirth #life #holistic #metamorphosis #transform #transformation #lettinggo #nonattachment #jamieschmidt #awakeshegoes #jamieschmidtlpc #goodvibes #growth #selflove #selftalk #appearance #hair #dreadlock #dreads #dreadhead #redhead #selfconcept #love #thisisme #takeitorleaveit #jour

Published by Jamie Schmidt, LPC

Just a human being on a journey of self discovery. Psychology + Spirit + Healing

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